Oh, my this could be a lengthy list. I am in fear of everything. My anxiety gets the best of me at times. I tend to worry about things that never come to fruition. This I believe is my greatest fault. I let my mind over think things when I shouldn’t. I worry about things that I can’t control. I worry about things that could change my life forever. I worry about the way people think about me. I worry if I’m making an impact on others. I worry about the decisions of my children. And the list goes on and on.
So, while my list could be miles long. I think that I should probably focus on what I should be worried about the most. I am scared that I may spend my entire life worried about what could happen that I miss all of the greatest things that my life is and can be. If I live my life in constant fear of so many things, can I really enjoy living the life that I’ve been given? But the question is how? How do I stop doing something that I don’t consciously make a decision to do. It just happens. I don’t choose to worry. It just happens.
I need to find a happy medium between being cautious and overly paranoid. I need to learn to relax and enjoy the moments as they come. I should learn to stop and smell the roses.
This is my fear. The need to control something that may not be controllable.