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deepest fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

This quote has really made an impact on me. The more that I look at the words and the meaning behind them, I believe them to be very true.

Maybe it is true that we are more afraid of what we are capable of.  The fact that we can accomplish so very much, but we choose not to.  At various times, I have witnessed people hide their talents so as to not make others feel bad.  But isn’t that doing a huge injustice to ourselves?

We are meant to be the best version of ourselves that we can possibly be. That can mean so many different things to everyone.  Whether it means professionally at the workplace or personally around your family and friends.

This quote has been used in two movies that I know of.  There could be more, but there are only two that I’m aware of.  The movie Coach Carter featured this quote when the high school basketball coach played by Samuel L. Jackson would ask his players, “What is your deepest fear?”  The other movie is Akeelah and the Bee.  This movie features Laurence Fishburne as a retired teacher that helps a young student prepare for the Spelling Bee. Both movies are a great testament to striving for the best version of yourself possible.

Many Thanks!

I was completely thrilled to get a notification that a fellow blogger, DBandalan, has nominated me for the Liebster Award.


The Guidelines for the Liebster Award

The intent of the Liebster Award is to discover new bloggers.  Bloggers are to award other bloggers that new to the blogging world.  It is a welcome and a hope that it would spread the word of their blog. If you choose to accept the award, you must…

  • Post the award to your blog
  • Thank the blogger who nominated your blog for the award and link back to their blog
  • Write 11 random facts about yourself
  • Nominate 11 fellow bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 200 followers
  • Answer the 11 questions posted by the award presenter and ask your nominees 11 questions

11 Random Facts About Myself

  1. I suffer from anxiety and, at times, panic attacks.
  2. I am addicted to social media.
  3. I am also addicted to Diet Coke.  (And, NO, Diet Pepsi will not substitute)
  4. I do not eat cooked fruit. (So, I do not like fruit pies, at all)
  5. I am left handed.
  6. My favorite flower is the Tulip.
  7. I have never really had a honeymoon with my husband. (Wish I could take a trip with him)
  8. I am so very near-sighted that I couldn’t function without either my glasses or contacts.
  9. I always wished I had a sister. (My brothers are clearly closer to each other than either one are to me. I’m the third wheel. I needed a sister to be my best friend,)
  10. I don’t really have a BEST friend. (I have friends but I would like to have that one person that I knew would always have my best interest at heart.)
  11. I am REALLY looking forward to being a grandma.  I can’t wait see my babies have babies.

My Nominations of Fellow Bloggers

  1. My Own Private Idaho – http://impossiblebebong.wordpress.com/
  2. CHRISTUS St. Joseph Village – http://stjosephvillage.net/
  3. Dandelion Fuzz – http://katcarpita.wordpress.com/
  4. joyroses13 – http://joyroses13.wordpress.com/
  5. The Souzapalooza – http://thesouzapaloozablog.com/
  6. Perspectives On – http://terriwebsterschrandt.wordpress.com/
  7. One Unicorn at a Time – http://oneunicornatatime.wordpress.com/
  8. Story Teller – http://valiantwarrior.wordpress.com/
  9. The Metamorphosis of a Wallflower – http://themetamorphosisofawallflower.wordpress.com/
  10. My Decade Long Travels – http://mydecadelongtravels.wordpress.com/
  11. Retirement Lifestyle – http://007pandas.com/

The answers to my 11 questions from the person who nominated me.

  1. What was the most outrageous adventure you’ve done in your life in the last 3 years and why? I decided to run in a half-marathon.  I trained for 4 months to get ready to run.  I did it. I completed it. I was so very proud of myself.
  2. Are you an early bird or a night owl? I’m a little bit of both.  I love to stay up late if I don’t have anywhere to go the next morning.  Bit if I have something to do, I would rather get up and get it over with. Then, take a nap in the afternoon.
  3. What is the most exotic food you’ve eaten in your life? Where? My father was a Mexican-American.  He used to make some crazy things, but it would have to be Cow’s tongue.
  4. What book genre do you read and who is your favorite author? I love romance books. I enjoy reading the Nicholas Sparks books.
  5. What was the last movie you watched that made you cry? The Fault in the Stars – This movie made me cry like a really big baby.
  6. Karaoke or Live band? Karaoke.  It is so much fun.
  7. Road less traveled or Tourist attractions?  Tourist attractions.  I love to see the things that I have always heard about.
  8. Sheltered life or Free Spirited? Sheltered Life. I never really drank alcohol until I was an adult. 
  9. Bungee Jumping or Sky diving? Neither.  I don’t even like roller coasters.
  10. What is the first thing you do when you wake up (except opening your eyes)? I always grab for my phone.
  11. What is the best holiday for you and why? I love Christmas.  I love it because I Jesus’s birthday, but also because it is just a happy time that brings family together.

My 11 Questions for my Nominees, if they choose to accept the award.

  1. What was your favorite toy as a child?
  2. Do you have a nickname? Explain.
  3. Would you rather take a cruise to the Bahamas or to Alaska? Why?
  4. What is your favorite movie of all time?
  5. Are you a planner or a fly by the seat of your pants type of person?
  6. Who is one person that you would like to visit with? Alive or dead.
  7. Summer or Winter?
  8. Crispy bacon or chewy bacon?
  9. What is a hobby of yours?
  10. Favorite sport to watch?
  11. Your favorite meal to eat?

This has been a wonderful experience for me.  I’m really enjoying the blogging experience.  I look forward to reading the blogs of my nominees and learning more about them.  Thank you for inspiring me and leading me to challenge myself.


Wine Connoisseur

I am kind of proud of the photo that I took for the Photo Challenge of the Week this week.  The challenge was to take a picture that would be “cover photo” worthy. I think my photo this week would be an ideal photo for the Cover of a Wine Enthusiast magazine.


I was able to visit the Les Bourgeois Winery near Columbia, MO recently.  It has a beautiful scene.  They have a very nice set up overlooking the Missouri River and is surrounded by beautiful fall colors on the trees.


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It was a very nice environment that makes you enjoy the view, company, and wine. I highly recommend it.

Cheers to you!

My Daddy’s Song

My father was not a conceited man by all means but he sure loved to sing this song around the house.

When my father was alive, it wasn’t always a pleasant experience.  There were certainly times that living with an alcoholic father that were a challenge. But now that he is gone, I remember mostly the good times.  I remember being his little girl and hearing his laugh.  He never met a stranger.  He could talk to anyone.  He had no fear.  He never gave a thought to how other’s felt about him.  He lived his life and did his thing.

I wonder what it would be like to have him still here.  He never knew his children as adults.  He never knew his grandchildren.  I wonder what kind of grandfather he would have been.  There are times that I dream about him still being here and being a part of our lives.  I know that he loved us.  I know that he would be proud of all of us.

There will always be a part of me that misses him and dreams of what could have been. My heart aches when I think about how his lifestyle took him away from us way too early.

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Freezer Meal Swaps

I am so very interested in participating in a freezer meal swap group.  I have heard some great things from others that participate in these groups.

If you not quite sure what a freezer meal swap is, it is a group of people that choose to create and make a certain number of the same meal.  This meal should be freezer friendly. Once the meals are made, the whole group of swappers get together and swap meals.  This way each person gets one of each meal to take back home with them.  These meals can be put in the freezer until the time when they need a quick meal.

From the research that I have done, it is important to do some organization and research of what works best from everyone involved. Here are a list of some vital information.

1. It is important to have a planning meeting with everyone involved. At this meeting, everyone should discuss any food allergies and food sensitivities.  I believe that it is important to also set a price point for each person to spend on the meal.  This is important because you don’t want to have spent a large amount of money and to not get equivalent meals in return.

2.  Meals take need to be baked should be created and swapped in disposable aluminum pans.  If a CrockPot freezer meal it created, it can be frozen and swapped in Ziplock freezer bags.  This way you do not have to worry about getting your dishes back.

3.  Use and create freezer friendly foods. Some things that do not freeze well are dairy products, cooked rice and potatoes, fried foods and crumb toppings.  So choose your meals carefully.

4. The day of the swap…Everyone should bring the recipe and the directions to cook. Then take home and enjoy.

I know that there are a lot of ideas on Pinterest for freezer meal swap recipes.  I look forward to looking, pinning and cooking some of the items on my board. Looking forward to finding a group and start swapping.


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For this weeks Photo Challenge, we are supposed to have a picture of our idea of refraction.

My photo is a picture that I took with my phone of a rainbow being displayed over a field close to our house.  I love rainbows and God’s promise to us that it  represents.

11“I establish My covenant with you; and all flesh shall never again be cut off by the water of the flood, neither shall there again be a flood to destroy the earth.” 12God said, “This is the sign of the covenant which I am making between Me and you and every living creature that is with you, for all successive generations; 13I set My bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a sign of a covenant between Me and the earth.…”

Genesis 9:11-13

Ain’t No Mountain High Enough

I am a fan of so many types of music.  It is hard to narrow it down.  I love everything from 80’s, Country, Pop, Oldies, Goodies, and everything in between.

My pick today is Ain’t No Mountain High Enough.

This song just makes me happy. When I hear this song, I just want to sing along and dance.  It is one of those feel good songs that make you happy the minute you hear it.

This song has been featured in several popular movies that include: Remember the Titans, Stepmom, Sister Act, Bridget Jones’ Diary, and several others.


Is Today the Day?

I am a school teacher and yesterday I got back those dreaded school pictures back from the photographers.  I pulled that package of pictures out of my mailbox and I hate who I saw. I saw an unhealthy woman who relies on food to make herself feel better.  I could see that my sedentary lifestyle has taken over my body and my life.

It was 10 years ago that I had my youngest child.  Two weeks after having my child, I had enrolled into an activity college course titled “Walking”  It was during this class that I started a new period in my life.  I was required to walk.  I had class twice a week and was required to walk for nearly the entire class period.  This jump started a weight loss period in my life.

I eventually lost 50 lbs in a matter of 8 months.  I couldn’t fit into my “fat” clothes anymore and had to buy new clothes.  It was amazing to me at that time that I was eating so unhealthy.  I started limiting my calorie intake and made sure that I never ate anything after 6:00 in the evening.  This was a big part of my weight loss.  I also never ate anything unless it was meal time. No snacks at all.  All of this on top of my walking several times a week, led me to that 50 lb. loss.

Shortly after I experienced my major weight loss, I started experiencing anxiety attacks.  I didn’t really know what was happening to me.  There were times that I thought I was dying.  I had never experienced these feelings before.  I suddenly became a recluse that was almost confined to my house.  It was the only place that I could relax and feel safe.   I would try to go to town to go shopping for groceries and I literally couldn’t handle the crowds. I would need to leave.  The best way for me to describe the feelings was that my blood was boiling.  I couldn’t calm myself on the inside.

It got to where I couldn’t keep weight on.  I lost another 20 lbs.  This was almost too much of a weight loss.  I wasn’t looking healthy or feeling healthy anymore.  I can remember just thinking to myself that I would rather be overweight and “normal” than skinny and “miserable.”

I’m not sure where it turned around.  I did go to the doctor. I did started taking medicine.  I learned that there are many people out there in the world that suffer from anxiety, but it is such a taboo topic.  I think people are afraid of appearing weak or even crazy.  However, It started to turn things around.  Within about 2 years, I started to gain weight again and feeling better.

Today, I’m on the other side of spectrum.  I feel good in regards to my anxiety, but my weight is out of control.  I don’t feel healthy and I don’t want to continue down this road. I am almost 40 years old and I need to take control. I need to make some changes. The older I get, the harder it will be to get my weight off.

Right now, I’m ready to make changes and live a healthier lifestyle. But, tomorrow, I will get hungry and food tastes good. I am constantly thinking about my next meal and how every event leads to a celebration of food. I have very little willpower. What can I do? How will I be strong enough to fight the temptations?

It’s a Dream World


This is a picture of my dreamy entry for the Photo Challenge Entry for something dreamy as stated in the Photo Challenge. This is picture that I snapped as a looked down my road.  This view stopped me in my tracks that day and made me realize what a beautiful world I live in.

This picture is a little ironic because just looking at this picture makes me see winter on it’s way.  I love this picture, but I hate winter.  I could seriously skip the winter months and head right into spring.  Once the time changes in November with Daylight Savings time, I know that there are 4 miserable months ahead of me until the time changes again.

I have self diagnosed myself with seasonal depression.  I need to sun to feel good. I need to be able to get outside and smell the air without freezing.